Friday, April 4, 2008

Droopy music

For many weeks after Evie died, I was way too fragile to listen to sad music. I didn't think I ever would be able to again! This doesn't seem like a big deal, but most of my music collection is filled with artists who are prone to focusing on the dark side of life (see Neil Young, Lucinda Williams, Emmylou Harris, Ryan Adams, Johnny Cash, and so forth). A lot of the songs I used to love are filled with themes of death and love lost, and up until recently my favorite music just made me feel worse. But now, it kind of makes me feel better. The lyrics mean more to me, and sometimes it's reassuring to have someone else express how I feel in an artistic way. I'd like to share this verse from Emmylou Harris' Hour of Gold:

The world will be my witness
when they excavate my heart
and find the image of your face
imprinted there like some Shroud of Turin
that neither time nor tundra could erase

Good stuff.

Another thing I was unable to do was watch sad or violent TV shows or movies. I thought that actually would be good for me, to have violence out of my life. But, alas, I finally popped in a disc of Season 6 of 24 that I got from Netflix and now I'm once again addicted to the most violent show ever on TV. Darn you, Jack Bauer.


Becky said...

I'm glad for you that you are able to enjoy your music and television again, in a whole new way. Do you think Evie would have become a 24 fan eventually?

Nicole said...

Oh, gosh, I certainly hope not! :)

That's like asking me if I think she'd grow up to smoke. I watch 24 because I'm addicted--I wouldn't have wanted her to make a similar mistake! :P

Nicole said...

Oh, but however, I would love if she would have followed in my footsteps of being a Neil Young fan.

Anonymous said...

How about a "Days of our Lives" fan? Since I don't think John and Marlena ever age. And I have not watched that show in years. I just see that they are still on the covers of Soap Opera magazines.

Nicole said...

Yeah, what is up with that? The last time i watched that show was in 9th grade, and whenever I see commercials for it now it seems like they are still on the same stories! :)

Anonymous said...

Like sands through the hourglass, so are the Days of our Lives. That must have been one heck of a big hourglass. I watched Days of our Lives when Nicole was a baby.